Floating, Flowing...like Feather on God's Breath

On Saturday, May 30^th, it was only fitting that I ended my online journaling with a day at the Carmelite Priory and retreat centre at Boars Hill, just outside Oxford city.  This was my only travel outside London this past month.

And I ended my day with a spiritual conversation with Fr Jimmy, a Carmelite monk who lives and works there.

After hearing a summary of my story up til that point, his suggestion was to continue my journey of going deeper into silence, and let go of all the mental “enlightenments” and “visions” that came in my prayer and meditations, no matter how insightful or life-giving.

He suggested letting go of literally all, even of all the rich imageries I experienced, just as John of the Cross suggested to Teresa of Avila.

Though, I am mindful too of what Teresa said in return, but that’s neither here or there for this present moment so I let go.

I am allowing myself to continue to go with the flow, and trust all things to unfold in perfect time, even if it means that I may still find myself in this open space in January.

And today, I listened to an interview of Toni Morrison on BBC and felt so encouraged and affirmed when I heard her say that “Beloved” was written when she lost her job, during  a space of unemployment, before looking for the next job!

And so I remain open and surrender into entering deeper into silence and divine union, be it another day, another month or another year.  However long it takes, and try to be present and mindful to each day’s journey

And remembering how, at Spiritual Directors' International conference on Emerging Wisdom in end April, I found I could breathe again...hence realising that I haven't been able to breathe freely for quite a while before that.  So I remind myself to breathe freely, and to be present to my breathing, to living full, abundant life!

Thank you.  Love and blessings to everyone who have been following me this past month.

Nita